Lucifer Morningstar (
my_own_advocate) wrote2022-05-29 10:33 am
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Samsara, Sunday Evening
It wasn't a great idea to keep sticking to old traditions to the letter, Lucifer and Octavia had found last weekend. And so Lucifer had suggested something else for this Sunday night.
Samsara.
It was a place where she felt safe. And it could-- go somewhere else, for a nice change of scenery. "Should we take her to the back of the preserve? Or head further along the coast?" Lucifer asked, as he hopped aboard, basket of food in hand.
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Samsara.
It was a place where she felt safe. And it could-- go somewhere else, for a nice change of scenery. "Should we take her to the back of the preserve? Or head further along the coast?" Lucifer asked, as he hopped aboard, basket of food in hand.
[[ for her ]]
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That was the discomfort talking.
It was there in the way she folded her arms over her chest, too.
"All this time I've been talking about one thing," she continued. "Not all of sex, just one thing. Was that not clear? Because it really feels like you've just jumped straight to thinking you need to prove I have preferences about other sex stuff."
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Because that was the simplest and truest explanation for where this had gone wrong.
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"How was I supposed to make it clearer than by saying several times it was about 'one thing' and even repeating what the one thing was? Especially when you know about my preferences better than anyone?"
Because he saw a side of them no one else was privy to. (Wasn't supposed to be, anyway.)
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Just to be clear.
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Sorry, that part was only now starting to sink in.
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Oh, hello, very old insecurity.
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... Hold on, she was going to find her way to something a little more reassuring than that.
"For one, why would you ever think I would be the model for how to do any of this shit properly?"
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(Or maybe she was mixing up loving people with managing to treat them the way they should be treated.)
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"You never asked why, but I'm gonna tell you anyway," she said. "I don't have sexy preferences right now, because they change, they come and go, they're based on -- whatever I feel like at the time, whatever was hottest most recently, that kind of thing. And I don't... That's a distant thing right now. There's nothing anchoring me to any preference, right now."
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